15-16/2/12
Music: La Dispute - Wildlife
Streetlight Manifesto - Somewhere in the Between
If and when we're found by
Another race
From distant space
Will we confuse them?
Have they observed us already?
The fickle struggle for life
For true love
And to defy death
What do they think of our mindless repetition
Is history doomed to repeat?
Will one look at war damn our race in their eyes?
Or will star-crossed lovers entice them?
Will they laugh at our ill-placed faiths?
And the conflicts they stir
And our dwindling resources
And love of that we were
For we must wonder
Is this race
From distant space
Just like us?
Are they doomed to repeat their history,
And ruled by their emotions,
Conflicts of desire and morality
Defining them as they do us?
Do they seek peace in idolatry?
And refuse to change their ways?
And if all this is true,
Are they here to seek salvation?
Entangled lovers must unite
The past must be left to rust
Else the desperate spacefarers
Will most likely be us.
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Well, I haven't posted on here for a while. I've had an interesting past few days, and now my head hurts. I'm confused and overwhelmed. And the fact that I head off to Uni soon doesn't help.
I know someone's reading this. Whether I'm your friend, or colleague, or schoolmate, or something more, I thank you for your patience. I thank you for putting up with me, I thank you for support, I thank you for anything you've ever done for me. And a certain person in particular, I thank you for your understanding. I don't want to let you down.
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In less depressing and hormonal news, I'm going to see La Dispute on Sunday. I'm so excited I could break something. I've got a good weekend lined up, so, hopefully, I can relax and enjoy myself.
My awesome parents got me a guitar. So I've started trying to teach myself, and I can play a few chords now. I'm starting out trying to learn a few Neutral Milk Hotel songs, thanks to their simplicity. Hipster credibility +10.
I have to go to work in an hour... I love the fact that I'm making money and being productive, but that place makes me think. Sometimes it's a good place to reflect. Sometimes it turns my mind into a wretched hive of scum and villainy.
Thursday, 16 February 2012
Wednesday, 8 February 2012
Improvised Victory
8/2/11
Music: Benny Goodman's Carnegie Hall Jazz Concert, Catch 22's Keasbey Nights
The human dependence on others is understating,
dissipating,
syncopating,
The value of our actual relationships
There is no perfect romance, nor friendship, nor comradery
But we can take steps towards an improvised victory
And while those we love may be the hardest to reconcile
It is they who're most worthy of the effort
The shunned friend, hurt by unkindness;
In his eyes, at least;
But she who he sees as unkind feels equally shunned
Scared of the inner beast.
But she's made a decision she needs to stick by,
And so do I,
And so does he,
And so do you
A big band of many instruments can clash
Or synchronise with alacrity
Insanity
Or Clarity
But it takes the combined efforts of all to combine as one
But, simultaneously, give each their own place
Their own grace
Walking away and talking away are incompatible
But it's what humanity is best at
So why don't we do both?
Not forget our past, but look into our futures
The best part of a big band is the soloists
But they'd surely be boring if it weren't for the backup of the band
So we must be soloists,
And go our own way, with support of course,
But blowing our own horn
Beating our own drum
And having a lot of fun
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Jazz metaphors, people! Oh yeah, I made the right choice.
I start uni in less than two weeks now. Damn. I'm still coming to grips with it. But I'm incredibly excited. What is not exciting me is the amount of garbage I've got to go through for Centrelink and to get my concession card. Social services, you suck. Sincerely: me.
I'm in a strangely good mood today. Like, bounce off the ceilings, spend 20 minutes sitting in front of my stereo not doing anything but listening to Miles Davis, good mood. A new Streetlight album being confirmed and talk of Psychonauts 2 definitely both help this mood.
Music: Benny Goodman's Carnegie Hall Jazz Concert, Catch 22's Keasbey Nights
The human dependence on others is understating,
dissipating,
syncopating,
The value of our actual relationships
There is no perfect romance, nor friendship, nor comradery
But we can take steps towards an improvised victory
And while those we love may be the hardest to reconcile
It is they who're most worthy of the effort
The shunned friend, hurt by unkindness;
In his eyes, at least;
But she who he sees as unkind feels equally shunned
Scared of the inner beast.
But she's made a decision she needs to stick by,
And so do I,
And so does he,
And so do you
A big band of many instruments can clash
Or synchronise with alacrity
Insanity
Or Clarity
But it takes the combined efforts of all to combine as one
But, simultaneously, give each their own place
Their own grace
Walking away and talking away are incompatible
But it's what humanity is best at
So why don't we do both?
Not forget our past, but look into our futures
The best part of a big band is the soloists
But they'd surely be boring if it weren't for the backup of the band
So we must be soloists,
And go our own way, with support of course,
But blowing our own horn
Beating our own drum
And having a lot of fun
__________________________________________________________
Jazz metaphors, people! Oh yeah, I made the right choice.
I start uni in less than two weeks now. Damn. I'm still coming to grips with it. But I'm incredibly excited. What is not exciting me is the amount of garbage I've got to go through for Centrelink and to get my concession card. Social services, you suck. Sincerely: me.
I'm in a strangely good mood today. Like, bounce off the ceilings, spend 20 minutes sitting in front of my stereo not doing anything but listening to Miles Davis, good mood. A new Streetlight album being confirmed and talk of Psychonauts 2 definitely both help this mood.
Monday, 6 February 2012
What do you want from me?
6/2/12
Music: Crusades, Mindless Self Indulgence, Throbbing gristle, and of all things LMFAO
Your picture sits by my window
It is staring me down
Yet I see you in town
I smile, and chat, I don't feel low
But my dreams talk of you differently
You bring me to pains
My perception is stained
Makes me wonder if we are free
Through our intangibility
Like a couple, they say
Forced to question our ways
Actually a couple, are we?
We seek each other for support
Romance, an accident
Is this fear commitment?
Or did we build to much rapport?
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I think too much about things. The smallest situation becomes the largest in your head. So when a situation's already large, it can seem like the very nature of reality has fallen into question. I'm about to make a decision which may end very badly for me. It may end very well. In 5 years time, I'll probably find it totally ridiculous that I thought of it as a big deal at all.
I've been away for the last few days, up on the Murray. I went paintballing, drank too much, the usual. Good weekend with good friends.
Music: Crusades, Mindless Self Indulgence, Throbbing gristle, and of all things LMFAO
Your picture sits by my window
It is staring me down
Yet I see you in town
I smile, and chat, I don't feel low
But my dreams talk of you differently
You bring me to pains
My perception is stained
Makes me wonder if we are free
Through our intangibility
Like a couple, they say
Forced to question our ways
Actually a couple, are we?
We seek each other for support
Romance, an accident
Is this fear commitment?
Or did we build to much rapport?
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I think too much about things. The smallest situation becomes the largest in your head. So when a situation's already large, it can seem like the very nature of reality has fallen into question. I'm about to make a decision which may end very badly for me. It may end very well. In 5 years time, I'll probably find it totally ridiculous that I thought of it as a big deal at all.
I've been away for the last few days, up on the Murray. I went paintballing, drank too much, the usual. Good weekend with good friends.
Wednesday, 1 February 2012
Companions
1/2/12 (Hehe, cool date)
I found you at a party, at a show, on the street
The last type of person I was expecting to meet
Intrigued by you, inquisitively joined you to eat
Talked all night by the fire, in the pit, on our feet
A bond exists between certain people,
Not romantic nor chemical, but one
Though causing frustration and confusion
Will withstand stresses, forces old and young
I see you in the city, at your house, at our work
Sometimes I'll apologise, for I have been a jerk
And we'll embrace our inadequacies and our quirks
And acknowledge that they are far outweighed by our perks
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It's amazing how one little exchange, one conversation, can make you feel wonderful about yourself. It can elevate a terrible mood to something not at all bad, and a good mood to a force to be reckoned with. As much as I frustrate them and they frustrate me, I have some amazing friends and I wish I could acknowledge that more often.
I found you at a party, at a show, on the street
The last type of person I was expecting to meet
Intrigued by you, inquisitively joined you to eat
Talked all night by the fire, in the pit, on our feet
A bond exists between certain people,
Not romantic nor chemical, but one
Though causing frustration and confusion
Will withstand stresses, forces old and young
I see you in the city, at your house, at our work
Sometimes I'll apologise, for I have been a jerk
And we'll embrace our inadequacies and our quirks
And acknowledge that they are far outweighed by our perks
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It's amazing how one little exchange, one conversation, can make you feel wonderful about yourself. It can elevate a terrible mood to something not at all bad, and a good mood to a force to be reckoned with. As much as I frustrate them and they frustrate me, I have some amazing friends and I wish I could acknowledge that more often.
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